Fathers love their children too

I am a father of two beautiful girls, one soon to be 4 and my older soon to be 14. I couldn't be more proud of my daughters and would give my life for them both. Thing is, I don't get to see my older daughter anymore. For five years her mom dragged me through the court system in an effort to prevent me from seeing her.

Our marriage broke down about a year before this all started and for this I would have to pay, I would pay a lot. Financial support was never an issue as I supported her in every possible way. Still supports her, but because I don’t get to see her, only financially.

At the end of the five years in court, fighting to be a father to my child, the court was on my side. I was suppose to be seeing her every other weekend and half of all holidays. It's now over two years since I have seen or even hear from her. We’re fast approaching a long weekend, the first of the summer and I should now be making plans for her, for her and her little sister, for us as a family, but this won't be so because the calls are not coming in, I have no contact but I make sure not to change any of my numbers, so I wait.

My dad died when I was about four and I didn't want the same for any of my children. Growing up without their Father. I see her in my mind's eye everyday and try to imagine how much she must have grown, how different she looks two years later. I sometimes tried to weight the pain and cost of going back to court with this issue against my own well-being, and came to the same conclusion like everyone told me, “she will come around” I wish for her to come-around sooner than later. Her little sister roll-plays and talks about her everyday and I know it’s a great lost for me, herself and her sister.

I would love for her to know that I love her very much, no matter what, and whatever the/her reason is, the relationship between herself and her sister should not suffer.

Anthony.